links to pictures

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=52875&l=950cf&id=543155419

this link SHOuLD allow all non-facebook people to see Amelie's pictures! I'll be printing some up soon to give away at christmas. If there's one that you want to make sure I print, let me know :-) Also let me know if this link doesn't work .... and save it, because the pictures get updated on a regular basis :-)

Harry the Tree

As we do every year, we scoured the area (well one area) for the PERFECT tree (one that would do) and cut it down (Chainsaw) and carried it home (OMG) This is Harry's story.

We planned to go on December 7th, but we were both sick (Corey and I) so we didn't. On December 8th (lol) sometime in the afternoon, after our naps (again Corey and I) lol, we bundled up, Amelie too, and got in the truck. Okay so first we had to find my boots, which Corey found as well as our toques, mittens and other various farm clothing. Corey had scouted a tree location near South Branch House.

*Okay honey, go look over the edge and see which way you want to go ..." He told me. So I went to the edge and peered each way. On one side (left) was a tiny, little tree, on the right ... another tree ... I looked back at him and decided to the right. I could see the tops of more around the corner.

Going down was fairly easy, Amelie and I slid down on our bums. We had fun actually - er except for the rock - but Amelie still thought it was fun. We walked for what seemed like MILES - seriously. Carrying a 17 lb baby is tough lol. Plus we were bulky and slippery - and a little cold.

Corey was SO picky and every tree we suggested wasn't good enough. Finally, you could tell he was getting annoyed lol. Amelie and I and Corey picked a tree. Corey cut it down - pouting the whole time because it wasn't as good as RODGER'S Tree last year. Awwwwwwwwwwww. To be honest, Corey said our tree looks like it's having a bad hair year *hence the name Harry* I think it's BEAUTIFUL.

We turned around and looked at the mountain we had to scale to get back up. Needless to say ... it was hilarious, interesting and I can't see us going to get our tree there next year lol. I'll post a picture soon

Babylegs !!!!

I have discovered this wonderful invention called babylegs. They are little leg warmers for little babies ... AND for older kids too. Most little girls we know are getting some, and future babies on the way ... are also getting some *FYI* lol. I also recently discovered a few different kinds, so I have ordered some and intend on testing to see which ones are the BEST. I love Amelie's though, they are SO cute, come in tons of designs, are superbly warm, stretchy, comfy, and keep her warm when I run out of pants - Hey ... it takes a lot of baby clothes to make 1 full load. I'm not doing half a load lol. I have Watermelon, tickled pink and rainbow :-) I'm VERY excited to get my new shipment and do some testing :-)

7 months old

Amélie is 7 months 6 days today.

These pics were taken on Dec. 1st. And yes ... she knows what a camera is and how it works and that she is supposed to smile :-)

She never ceases to surprise us, nor make us stop laughing. Even at her crankiest moments, she's a comedian.

Amélie is not interested in crawling ... well maybe she's interested, but she is quite content to sit on the floor and play with what's in front of her. Usually a drum that sings, a Xylophone and her teething ring. She has tried to crawl a couple of times, but got distracted along the way so ... sigh ... oh well lol. Actually, better for me :-D I can still leave the stairs open to get that nice warm air AND Harry the Tree is not in danger (for now)

For those who haven't seen her in a while and are worried she'll play shy - let me reassure you ... not to worry. Once she senses that maman and papa are okay with you, she'll be bouncing on your lap and pulling your hair and/or glasses in no time. She also talks a lot, so be prepared with something to reply. She gets upset if you just smile or laugh at her lol. You actually have to talk back, then she'll just keep goin'. She even gestures with her hands - she has SUCH a personality. She has this thing about putting her fingers in her mouth, so ... be warned ... she's investigating your teeth. If you are or recently were sick or are coming down with something, PLEASE REFRAIN lol.

Speaking of teeth, Amelie has ONE. Yup ... one sharp little devil. And yes I am still breastfeeding ;-) She is very well behaved that way. She eats most of her vegetables and all her fruits - something about mixed vegetables she doesn't like lol. And .... her favorites so far are sweet potatoes, carrots and blueberries. mmmmmmm. She can also feed herself with a spoon. She's actually better at it than if I try to help her. She has a sippy cup of water that she likes too but prefers to drink out of a big girl cup or better yet, a bottle (as in a water bottle lol)

What else, what else ... OH she weighs 16 lbs 11 ounces now and is 26 inches. Yah, the Dr's office screwed up somewhere along the weigh (get it WAY LMAO), but the health nurse triple checked lol. She's NOT shrinkin'. Her head is 44 cm. She has lots of brains. So .... yah ... I think that's up to date. :-) Cheese!!!

My husband

Sigh .... I love my husband.

There are a lot of things I don't like about him ...

1. his hunting addiction - it cuts into his adoration of me (pout) ;-)
2. his nasty morning breath - seriously ... gross
3. the way he drives - he usually scouts for deer while we're going somewhere
4. the way he dilly dallies - I have to tell him at least an hour before we leave that I want to leave
5. how he copies what I say - I'm not kidding he drives me bonkers when I'm talking and he just repeats me or tries to talk at the same time. ARGH!!

There are a lot of things I do like about him though.

1. his hunting addiction - it DOES keep me fed all year - well moose season does ... usually
2. his nasty morning breath - reminds me he's still alive
3. the way he drives - at least he won't hit the deer ....
4. the way he dilly dallies - although usually annoying, sometimes it's cute
5. how he copies what I say - I know he's paying attention lol

My favorite thing about Corey is that at the end of the day, no matter what happened, or how many times we *discussed* something, he always says he loves me and refuses to let me stay mad. He reminds me that he's always listening, but sometimes he needs to process things first. He tells me no matter what crazy thing I do (y'all know I do weird things) he supports me 100%. He thinks about my feelings ... not always first, but they do come to mind and that's important lol.

And he's a great daddy to his baby girl. So he spends most of their time together watching hockey and explaining to her the statistics of his crappy team, and how they should trade that crappy player and I'm pretty sure her 2nd word will be *#&$ or @#$(@#$&( (I say 2nd word because Corey insists her first word was mom).

So even if I'm furious and stomping around the house. Even if I'm complaining and venting about my husband. Saying he's mean and inconsiderate and all those things. Just smile and nod and agree (I wouldn't recommend disagreeing ;-) because chances are ... at the end of the day ... I'll change my mind. :-D

6 months

What ... it's been 6 months? What? When? Amélie is already destined to be taller than me, growing a steay inch per month. Joy. I better get all my spankings in before she's 5 ... ;-) I watch anxiously for signs of teeth ... or any tooth for that matter. I'm sure I've begun to hallucinate because I was SO positive I saw the tooth the other day ... and now it's gone. Amélie is not too interested in crawling but is thrilled as can be if you offer to hold her on her feet. She loves looking you in the eye and will squeal in delight. She's also a copy cat so ... you know ... don't do whatever lol. She likes to chill and watch TV sometimes you know ... like House ... Fringe .... Pocoyo and Rolie Polie Olie. She weighs only 14 lbs 9 ounces, but I guess that makes her a tall skinny girl. WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I wish I was tall sometimes sigh. I know before I know it she'll be older and talking back so I cheris the time now. that's she younger I mean, she's been talking back since day 1. :-) She loves people and adores playing with kids, so long as when she's done she can go back to her momomomomomomom. The greatest achievement ... being able to sit up in the shopping cart ... no more CARRIER WOOT WOOT.

Prop 8 in California

As I watched the Election last night I actually assumed that Prop 8, passing the ban on gay marriages, would not pass. This morning I am stunned to find out that it looks like it will. What is WRONG with people? Don't they remember when a black person couldn't marry a white person because it was socially unacceptable? I'm so sad for all those gays and lesbians (or is it just gays ....) who are only looking for equality. Hopefully it won't last long and I can't imagine it will. As I've said a hundred thousand times I'm sure .... with every new generation being born, change is bound to happen. We are being raised more liberal and always searching for equality. Just like the midwives in Saskatchewan. They are going to stay no matter how hard people fight against it.

Perspectives

As a first time mom, who had a ... let's call it interesting labour and delivery, I find myself a little more protective of Amelie than I thought I would be. Okay, lol, that's a total lie and I knew I would be a crazy mama bear :-) Luckily, and gratefully (is that how that's spelled?) everyone has ... okay, most people have given the space required for me to adjust and relax. As all you moms out there know, it's a big change. And ... I'm totally lying about how hard Amelie is, she's a sweetie pie (she has her moments of diva attitude, but don't we all?) I think the biggest adjustment was dealing with everything that happened immediately after she was born. It was incredibly overwhelming and traumatic.

A lot of people had hurt feelings because of things we said or did, or even perhaps things we still do. I suppose I'm a little surprised (I'm so not that surprised ... I'm not exactly classified as cute and cuddly) that anyone took offense. Most of the people that took offense are moms themselves and although I understand everyone's experience is different, surely most emotions are similar. I find that I don't exactly embrace large events and get a bit nervous if I have a lot of time to think about it, luckily ... Amélie is a cool cucumber and can handle my nerotic behavior with ease. It's also been a blessing that nobody has pushed the separation issue with us.

It is true that the very first time you leave your baby with someone else ... you're a wreck. I was only gone 90 minutes (to get my nails done) and I was very nervous. I've been able to take it one step at a time without being rushed. I've been to the movies with Tanya and been able to run errands, mostly stress free. Of course, I will always be worried, aren't all moms? I've been able to calmly watch other people handle Amelie and never been pressured to give her to someone for them to hold. I've been extremely lucky, that most people will either, ask if I need them to hold her or wait until I ask them. For that, I'm grateful (again ... is that a word?) it's made things a lot easier on me, Amelie and Corey.

I might even be able to leave Amélie with someone other than Corey and go to a movie. All in due time ;-) You know ... I don't know why I called this perspectives ....

4 months old!

It kinda sucks that all her smiley pictures are blurry, but I'll take what I can get.

This is Amelie practicing for *Showgirls* lol

Watching TV

It seems that every month I'm more and more surprised by how much she grows. She rolled over for the first time today. From front to back and I was very excited. Let's see.... accomplishments ... well, she can pull herself to stand if you give her your hands, she giggles, and sits in a high chair. Sleeps through the night. HOORAY .... and is seriously long. She's doing very well, grabs toys and we are investing in an exersaucer although I'm starting to think i won't need it for very long. Oh well :-)

Camping at Weyakwin

It was interesting to say the least. I highly enjoyed seeing all the aunts and uncles and cousins and spending time with Dad and Dawn, but I don't think I really got the meaning of it lol. Amelie decided to start teething that weekend and so it ended up with a lot of walking and soothing. Don't get me wrong, it wasn't all like that, she always had smiles for everyone. She's pretty easy to please actually ... well most of the time. We slept in a tent with a heater, but it only really worked on our last night, which should have been great, except we all came home with colds.

On the upside, we saw everyone and Corey got his boat working. We've also made plans for next year with a toddler. I'm excited and planning on planting my butt on the beach or in the boat. Amelie can come with us, or she can stay with Grandma and Grandpa lol. All in all, I suppose it wasn't that bad. I didn't realize how frustrating it would be to be away from the things I normally use to keep my baby a happy baby. She likes the water ... but not cold water lol. Sigh. now I know ... I should have packed the kitchen sink ... ;-)

Corey's Boat

The Boat. Yup. There it is. Corey's GREAT buy .... at least it floats. It's a work in progress, but he got a good *deal* It obviously needs help but once the motor is fixed we should be ready to go boating :-)

3 months already?

I can hardly believe it's been 3 months, but I can. I can honestly say that I've been blessed with a GREAT baby, but I yearn to sleep 8 hours straight ... even just once. Amelie is such a snuggler that in the morning we can snuggle in bed while she nurses and we usually fall back asleep. She laughs and grins, and talks and talks and talks. Honestly, I don't know where she gets it from ....

She now weighs 12 lbs 5 ounces and is 23 1/4 inches. That's 1 1/2 inches taller than at week 5 for those of you who are curious. Yah .... she's gonna be tall. I was also told that she's acting more like a 4 month old ... she can hold her own head and pull herself up (with our help of course) and she loves to jump on your lap and sing (courtesy of her memere) Now I have to listen to her *sing* to her mobile at night lol.

Right now she's going through a growth spurt (which leaves me up all night) and she's broken out into a rash (a heat rash/ a bit of exzema) Other than that, she's happy, healthy and adorable ;-)

10 weeks old

I can hardly believe how fast time is going - yet it seems to be going SO slowly. Of course, it's hard to tell what's really happening because my days and nights are mashed together and I never know what day it is. It's not uncommon for me to refer to the day as friday when it's actually tuesday.

Amelie has grown so much already, but I still think she's little. She is QUITE the chatter box and once she gets started it's hard to get a word in. She has BIG smiles, but not really laughing yet. She likes to shriek and is extremely dramatic about everything. Seriously, I don't know where she gets that from. Probably Corey. Amelie has also learned to catch things that are hanging over her, but she has a problem coordinating the *letting go* part and gets upset (hence the dramatics begin) She does not like to be on her tummy, unless it's in her bed or on one of us. She'd much rather sit up or stand up (assisted of course). She also has this hilarious look that actually reminds me of mom. I'll get a picture of it and post it. It's a look like she's calling your bull crap.

Amelie loves her bath time and it's also a fun time for me - since I can coordinate it with MY shower time. She can be crying her little head off and I turn the shower on ... and it's blissfully quiet. Although, it is VERY rare that I have to try something different to quiet her. I can count on one hand the nights I got ZERO sleep. She's also starting to go to bed at a decent time - 9-11 pm and sleeps anywhere from 2-6 hours at a time. Yeah!! This is great for two reasons. 1. I can pump for the days I am out (like my upcoming golf game day with the girls) 2. I can sleep

She's also not a normally shy kiddo and likes people - except when there are too many hands on her. She doesn't like to be handled and passed around. And to be honest, I don't like it when she's handled and passed around. It's also getting a lot easier to pack her around, even though she's heavy as heck ;-). So be ready for visits, we hate staying home.

Tamind the Wild Jesse James

As I was walking down the road not that long ago, I noticed my 3 year old bay gelding in the cattle shelter. I called out to him, finding it strange that he wasn't with Tinky (we didn't name him). J.J. came out and neighed to me, but when he started to walk, I felt my heart sink. He wasn't putting any weight on his right hind leg. Damn. Not feeling like wrangling a horse with a baby in my arms, I went into the house and called my neighbour - Tanya. She would know what to do. She came over and after putting my sleeping baby to bed - we went outside and we called him over. Seeing as to how he's not broke yet - he eagerly came up to us (grin) We haltered him and got a good look at it - I felt a bit useless because it's been a while since I've done anything with my horses - but Tanya - luckily - had it under control. After establishing the damage we went inside and I called mom to come watch Amelie so that I could help clean and tend to the wound.

Once mom got there we went back outside, haltered J.J. - who's never been properly halter broke but acted like he's been halter broke - and really assessed the damage. We decided to get some things from Tanya's house. Before leaving though Tanya wanted to give him some medication - which went rather unceremoniously, then we whisked over and were back in a jiffy. We ran cold water over his leg. I might add that he also stood tied as if he'd been tied his whole life. Of course, this is his 2nd injury - last year he had a horrible looking gash on his shoulder - which Tanya also helped me with - so this wasn't exactly new. After Tanya had cleaned it all up, we turned him loose in the upper pen.

Yesterday - Tanya told me that J.J. was out. I peered at her curiously, then realized she meant he'd escaped into the larger paddock. I just laughed and we went back outside and called him back up. He - of course being the wild horse that he is - immediately came to see us. After cleaning his leg again, Tanya gave him some more meds - which this time he did not appreciate. Today is his last day for meds and hopefully it goes well. I wonder if I just get on him one day if he'll just act like he's been broke his whole life :-)

Sleep Deprivation VS Sleep Deprivation

Everyone has always and still always says that when you have a baby you can say goodbye to sleeping. I'm still undecided whether I got more sleep before Amelie was born ... or after. While pregnant, especially in the last two months, I was so stressed ... I could sleep two or three hours and then Amelie would wake me up, kicking ... or ... I suffered from restless leg syndrome. Do you know how to get rid of that? YOU CAN'T! ;-) I would walk and walk and stretch ... and need I remind everyone I gained a few pounds so it was never easy. (My knees suffered a lot) Luckily I went on mat leave early and I SO needed it. I slept during the day.

Then Amelie was born - and the sleep deprivation started while in labor thank you very much. I still remember watching Lisa and Corey trying to doze lol. I kept glaring at them, but it was dark so I don't think they noticed (hunh - shrug) Now that Amelie is here ... I still don't sleep, but it's SO ingrained in my mind that when she goes for a 4-5 hour sleep ... I can't. I toss and turn and ... clean and try a billion things ... then just as I'm falling asleep ... she wakes up and doesn't go back for a nap for .... the day ,.... or ... the night lol. THANKFULLY, she's usually pretty cool with just vegging in the living room watching Nanny 911, Star Trek Voyager ... or ... Shrek the Third (we've seen it at least 10 times in June). We get into some great discussions about how she's going to raised and where her time-out corner should be. (she suggested her swing) Of course, NOW I'm awake and we start to play - she usually quits after twenty minutes and either falls asleep on the floor or demands to be fed - or carried around so she can inspect the house. Ya'll think I'm kidding, but she likes to look around at things. I know I'll regret saying this, but I can't wait until she can walk. Yup.

Amelie doesn't have a schedule either. Her schedule is whatever she wants and for those of you who have successfully put your babies on a schedule ... you must be baby whisperers. Amelie just blinks at me like ... maman ... I'm going to take your need to have everything planned and EAT it. (nod) But I've been told it gets better. Once she gets older then I can get my revenge, as my parents did to me ;-) We'll see who's sleep deprived THEN!

Breastfeeding 101

How to breastfeed 101

1. Get your baby and get comfy
2. Give her the breast
3. Relax as she drinks while watching some television or somethin'
4. Check to see why she's making gurgling and choking sounds.
5. Be careful when you take her off to check her out ... probably going to get squirted with milk here.
6. Rub her back a bit and sit her up to help her out.
7. Take off your shirt, your bra, probably your pants and place a towel on the chair - these will most likely be soaked in milk.
9. Get a breastpad and some receiving blankets.
10. Start over
11. Burp your baby
12. Clean up the mess as she throws up everything she just ate - since it poured in her mouth she'll probably puke ;-)
13. Start over if she wants to.
14. Save yourself from constantly doing laundry and invest in a nipple shield. It also helps you from getting chomped on and really helps them learn to latch. :-D


Things I can do while breastfeeding :-D

Talk on the phone
Talk to company
Walk around
Type lol ... with BOTH hands (proud smile)
Sleep or at least nap
Put clothes away
Change the channel on the TV
Get iced tea out of the fridge from a jug that you have to squeeze a little button
Open a bottle of sprite
Eat

hmmm ... I guess mom's are pretty talented.

Postpartum Depression

I thought I'd write about a serious issue before getting on to some of the more fun parts of being a new mom. I do believe that every first time mom gets the blues, some more than others. Although I had told myself I would not get them, by the time I was in my 8th month of pregnancy I was already getting the blues. I was simply overwhelmed, as I'm sure most first time mom's are. I was SO sick of people calling to see if the baby had been born, especially people who *suddenly* had to be a part of our life. I know that everybody cared and still does, but I don't think everyone realized to what extent it was affecting me. Of course it never helps that my hormones were so out of whack that everything including the dog's drool made me upset.
Maybe nobody else has felt this way, but I know I have. As my sister gets ready for her wedding, it's so hard not to just take over *because I know what's best*. I'm glad I can restrain myself and I hope I can when she has her babies too. I hate to break it to those who've thought they could BOND with me when I became a mom ... if you didn't bond before, you ain't bonding now. While I was in the hospital, I was absolutely furious at the visitors who didn't call (except Grandma and Grandpa Gareau) - who felt they just needed to show their support - and the lack of privacy when I needed it. It made a delicate relationship even more fragile - and I'm not talking about mine and Corey's. Although I was desperately glad for Corey's support, what I needed most from people, was my privacy and I didn't get it because ... they felt they knew what I needed ... and to be honest, I think that hurt more than anything. Nobody ... will ever know me more than I will know myself. I wish I had been believed when I said I wanted no visitors ... I wish I had believed myself too - except for those I explicitly phoned to come and see me. In the hospital ... I had the worst birthday of my life so far. By the time we left the hospital, I craved sleep and solitude ... I got some sleep between incessant phone calls, and no solitude. I got plenty of offers of help ... with Amelie, but none to clean or cook for me. I was getting worse and trying to hold it together.

I can honestly tell you all, that I did not feel like a happy new mom. In fact, I felt like a babysitter because everyone knew what was best and would say stupid things like *oh you do everything by the book* and *that's not normal* or my favorite *she's part of OUR family you know we have every right to see her* ... I'm sorry, but she is a part of Mine and Corey's family ... and everyone else is our extension. Our family comes first, and our family was suffering because I was so unhappy, in turn making Corey unhappy and he certainly didn't understand what was wrong with me. In retrospect, I wish someone had taken him aside and pointed out that he needed to show support, even if he didn't agree with my protectiveness. I so needed to bond with Amelie and I felt like no one cared. Luckily for me, I had Tanya and I am so grateful that God made her my neighbor because she knew exactly what I was going through. She'd had many of the same issues that I'd had. She'd been plucked from her home in Alberta and set in a strange setting with a new family and then found herself with a new baby where everyone critisized and commented. I called her so many times during the first week or two, needing to talk about my feelings.

I'm also thankful that my sister Gayle would call and ask to come visit, then when she got here, she'd make something to eat. She even drove out here JUST to make me something to eat and that meant so much, because then I could just take care of the baby and try to learn to become a mom without interference. I've learned so much in the past two months and one thing is ... to appreciate the help ... and sleep when I can ;) There's no way to battle postpartum blues when you're crabby that's for sure.

I do thank everyone for their support and thoughts because I know I didn't appreciate any of it at the time. For those of you who've respected our privacy thank you so much, and although now I'm a bit easier going with Amelie, it's always safer to call first because as you all know ... with a baby things can change in a hurry. I'm so grateful for my mom who could just take Amelie and play with her so I could spend some time with Maddie - who usually had to be convinced to spend time with me lol. Silly Maddie. I know it was the hardest on her to stay away because she just wanted to take care of us, and although she didn't always ... she did her best. And thanks Memere and mom for cleaning the house before we got home, I'm sure the house appreciated it and is wondering when you'll be back :-)

so I hope nobody takes offense to this, I've revised it because some people did. I just want to make sure that everybody understands why I may have and may still be a little on the recluse side. Just be patient and let me be a new mom ... I won't have my firstborn as a baby forever and I want to cherish those smiles and giggles for a while before sharing them. Feel free to call and chat, and if you want to visit - make an appointment (jk) It's just better for everyone if you call ahead - it's easier to walk around topless when you're breastfeeding ... just so you know. :-D

Update

Hi everyone! I know it's been a long time, so I thought I'd do some updating real quick.



Amélie was born on May 5th, 2008 weighing 7 lbs 13 ounces. She was born at 6:24 AM and was 21.5 inches long, after 20 hours of labor. Everything went great and it was a natural and unmedicated birth. About an hour after she was born it was apparent she was turning a tad on the purply side so we went to the hospital where she was put on oxygen. While there, she was unable to breastfeed for 24-28 hours so she was connected to an IV and we had to stay in the hospital for a week. To be honest, anything after she established breastfeeding was a crock of crap, but let's not get into that quite yet. I'd like to just enjoy my baby girl :-)



Amélie now weighs over 9lbs and is over 22 inches long. She is 7 weeks old and smiles a lot and is very cuddly, like her daddy. She's a great baby, especially if I can stay away from Jellybeans lol and rootbear. I never had cravings like I have now tee hee. She has so much personality ... kind of like mine though (yes be warned she likes it her way) and eats ... whenever the hell she wants lol. She mostly sleeps anywhere from 2-4 hours in a row and is starting to get a set schedule, but we aren't holding our breaths. She used to sleep in her bassinet, then slept with mommy in the big bed and is now in her own room in her crib.



I can't believe how quickly she's growing and I'm always surprised when I have to put her clothes that are too small away and pull out new ones. She's growing up so fast, but I can't help but be excited for her to be 6 months old :-)

Amelie's birth story ~ the edited/soft version

Amelie was born on May 5th, 2008 @ 6:24 AM.

It was My 4th when I went into labour, believe it or not I thought it was kinda funny. Trust me ... it didn’t last too long, but surprisingly through my whole labour I did keep my sense of humor ... mostly. By the time Lisa, our doula, got there, it was 6:00 pm. Seriously ... I thought she would NEVER get there and I was definitely in active labour. We had decided I would labour at home as long as possible. So, ... it didn’t look like I was going to have a 6 hour labour lol. Meh. I can shrug it off now, but ... at the time there was no shrugging. Labour continued on, making me wonder why women ever had children, why men were so annoying ... why Corey kept trying to rub my back after I threatened to kill him at LEAST twice ... I also pondered Lisa’s sanity at being a doula. She must be insane to deal with women like me all the time. They kept lying to me to keep my spirits up too. Almost done. Almost done. Right. I totally believed them every time too. POFFFFFT. Lisa kept making me move around. I hated her at this point, but I knew she was right. I again wondered at her sanity, but she kept at it and Corey kept at it and I seriously had no choice but to keep at it lol. I remember asking JellyBean for a time out and I did get a few. Finally, my water broke – okay I broke it with a push around 3 ish (I know you’re all dying to know about this lol) And I mean 3 am on May 5th by the way. Corey kept telling me I was doing great so I figured I was. And then I had to push and push I did. I didn’t get those on TV urges and I seriously could not hold my breath and push. Who DOES That anyways? I would have passed out for sure lol. It took 2 hours and 20 minutes, some very cool positions, Lisa and Corey telling me ONE more push (again .... they were lying) and FINALLY Amelie was born. If you ask Corey to tell you the story of Amelie being born, it’s very hilarious lol. I remember looking down and seeing my BEAUTIFUL little girl, and immediately feeling smug that I was right. Mom’s always know and now I know what my mom means when she says she ALWAYS knows.
We went to the hospital after a quick bath and cuddle and Amelie got the little extra help she needed with oxygen. She was put on antibiotics (turns out she didn’t need them) and and an IV. There was nothing scarier than seeing your little angel being poked and prodded, but she’s a fighter and she did great. 24 hours later, she got jaundice ... joy ... FINALLY, after the inquisition of nurses, doctors, strangers ... and after the ridiculously long and pointless stay in the hospital we FINALLY got to take our little miracle home, where she was born. I am very upset by our treatment in the hospital, but when I look at my baby girl I know one thing for sure. They can never take away the most amazing birth story ever. And they can NEVER, ever take away how special she is to us. And no matter what they accuse us of, Amelie will always know the truth, and that we did the best thing for her. God gave us instincts and I used mine. The best thing I did was have her at home, then bring her to the hospital. Now when I look at her, sleeping in bed as if she’s sunbathing, I think about how she’s everything we’ve ever wanted. A homebirth, a healthy and happy baby ... and so far ... daddy’s little girl and mommy’s little angel.

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