After thoughts about the birth

When I think back about the birth I already know what I will do next time ... if we are blessed/decide to have a 3rd child. I won't be afraid to put my hand down and guide the baby's head all the way out. I will make sure my team is completely prepared for how I want to deal with my back pain ... and I will keep my baby skin to skin for a longer period of time. These are things that I can control, that no one dictated for me but that I decided at the time and have changed my mind about them.

There is no greater feeling than birthing a baby in the quiet and calm of a bedroom ... with no bright lights, no masked people ... in fact I didn't even notice the pile of equipment the midwife had brought until AFTER Will was born. There was no one grabbing my baby, shaking him, suctioning him ... there was quiet observation, reassurance and an occasional check in. I wasn't disturbed and neither was Will. In fact ... I even went for a shower a few hours later. It was extremely amazing to pee without any burning sensation. No really ... that's amazing! I'm so glad that with both my children I was able to push as I saw fit. I am truly glad that although our first choice doula couldn't be there ... a new friend I'd made (because of Lisa) was able to come and be there. And it was the first time we'd met face to face!! It was great! She was obviously well trained :)

It was nice to come home and have no visitors for a day or two and then the grandparents, then the aunts ... and now anyone who wants to visit and sit in my sauna-I mean house. I suggest every mama have a babymoon ... for as long as you need. My mom came over a couple times to help keep Amelie busy and let me rest with Will. I appreciated ALL her awesome mom power (even though my window is still falling apart after she cleaned it ... ) and I still appreciate her coming over to help out whenever I need it, stopping in to check up on me (I know that's what she's doing) Everyone has been pretty great since Will was born and I think that has greatly attributed to my not getting post partum ... well not yet ... time can only tell but I do feel a lot better about myself and my baby and my abilities. It helps that Corey was supremely awesome after Will was born as well and Amelie adjusted in a manner that is almost scary. Well ... that's all for now ... but more updates to come soon!